with you, it felt so damn true

Makeitstory,- Our story is kind of thing that i quite want to remember forever. How we met and how we realized that we were never going anywhere. 

Our random topic was magical thing that make me completely interested with you. I could talk everything. You were such a good adviser and listener for me. We had same topic to talk, same music to listen and same things to pursue. i was learning about stock while you were learning about mutual funds. We could talk about it for hours, and i knew i really enjoyed every single second we spent together.

I remembered, first time we met, we casually talked about flat earth vs round earth. The fact that you are a geologist was one of background about first topic we discussed. Even it was not such normal thing to share when you first time meet new people. But we did it. Because our meeting was unique thing that ever happened.

Sometimes we stayed up late just for talking randomly. To be honest, I didn’t know much about you, yeah we rarely talked about personal life. We had same think about how to keep our personal life privately. And i do respect it.

Now it was just a story. this last September i talk to my self to control my memory about you. I am listening September by adithia sofyan while i write this, i fully remember about you. About our failed-meeting on September and on this month also i should say good bye to all memories about it even it felt so damn true. 

Good bye, hope you always be fine everywhere you are. I miss you sometimes you know 😊 

My life feels kinda boring lately

Makeitstory,- It has been a long time since i have hobbies to do for spending my time like watching my fav tv show/Korean drama or reality show and reading good book. But lately, i loss them. I don’t know where they go. I just miss those kind of activities which make me feel alive anyway. Fortunately, i still remember i have them! 

I really miss reading a good novels that i find randomly in my digital library. I miss when i have to sleep late because i can’t stop watching my fav movies/series, or i just laugh for every jokes from variety show that i love so damn. 

But where do they go right now? i really have no idea!

i have read a nice quote, if you really love something, you will free your time to make it come true, not making it come true if only you have free time. Do you see the difference?

Yup, your hobbies is the kind of something that you love. Everyone needs to entertain themselves. One of the things is spending ur time to do hobbies. Feeling tired after work is such a normal thing but not doing ur hobbies because of that, it’s absolutely wrong! You are gonna kill your self slowly! And i am on the way there, yeah this boredom will kill me first! 

But, I realize it and think to change the situation asap. Now i am trying to enjoy my life. Doing my hobbies and perhaps can create and find the new hobby. I promise to my self to live like the quote carpe diem! Forget everything behind me and not too over to think about future. Just enjoying the present, every moments and every single second in my life. 

            Carpe diem!

might we fall in love with someone that we have never met before

Makeitstory,- I just met this guy in a messenger app. He is friendly to everyone and looks charming with his own way. First time we just talked in a group. He used to ask “how are you” to me and to other members, yeah he is an admin on the group. when ppl just ask about his personal life, he just answers like it is a joke. He never can be serious to answer kind of that question. I never know where exactly he comes from, what his real name is or who he is. He looks so mysterious. He keeps his personal life well. From time to time i catch my self to be more interested about him. I always read his reply at group and how his ways get interaction with other.

One day, i found another group with he is as a admin too. I joined there. Then we just interacted more intense than before. We became closer slowly. From that conversation i collected information about him, about his job, his family and where exactly he lives. All about him is getting interest to me. I don’t know why. It happens just like that. We never had private message before, but suddenly He resent me message that i miss at the group via pm. I got it and said thanks to him. We never talked more after that. 

Then i just spontaneously left that group. He sent me pm asking why i left? I said to him that i have to focus to something. It’s not completely wrong or right. To be honest, i need space from him. I begin to realize what i feel to him. It might be too early to say about love. Even we never meet in real. But it must be going to the way 😳

i never guess after i left the group we become closer and have  private chat 🙄 however he is still as mysterious as before. We just chat for the random topic and the last he asked me to be admin, i said “i can’t” . I just thought the reason why he sent pm to me only because of that asking. 

Until i write this, i am still confuse about the feeling. Could it be love? While i never meet him in real. But i enjoy have chat with him and getting too enthusiastic for it.

and after few weeks i realize that i am only curious about him. about his personal life. it absolutly isn't a love wkwk..

If someday, you find and read this journal, i just wanna say, thank you for giving me time to realize, whatever that found in virtual world, only will be virtual ever. never expect more. The last but not least, thank you for inspiring me to write this article :)

Journal about Sadness

Makeitstory,- Just cry if you really need it. Everyone do it. It completely doesn’t make you look weak. 

It feels like everyone have rejected me. I feel worst. Really. 

Please Allah just give me spirit. Just give me stronger than before. Show me ur miracle about patient.

I am waiting. Still waiting and  will be always waiting about the right time. I knew, you’ve given me a lot of time to reliaze that You have planned everything. You know what’s the best for me and When it will come.  

Just show me right way. The way for everyone who always get your blessing. I hope, i am one of them.